Yesterday was not a good day. My knees are bad right now. Aching, stiff, giving out on me, popping, sticking and generally just pissing me off. This is arthritis. Sometimes you’re fine, other times you’re nowhere near fine. It should last only a couple of days. I just need to ride it out, take more care when walking up and down stairs so I don’t fall, take more breaks from the desk to stretch my legs straight. And this too will pass. In the meantime the dreams continue. I’m very tired. These dreams don’t seem to have anything to do with the moon (but perhaps an eclipse?) More than likely they are a direct result of my current physical discomfort. I have the crazy ability to be very much awake and dreaming at the same time resulting in what they call sleep paralysis. I’m awake and can’t move because I’m asleep and dreaming. Dreams cross over into real life. Which can be pretty damn scary when you happen to be having a nightmare, somewhat interesting when celebrity guest stars show up. I’m trying not to trigger any nightmares during this time, shifting the channel whenever the preview for The Grudge 2 comes on. We are so not going to see that one! Anyway, that’s all doing with me. Today I’ve got to get some info on this new garbage program and shift things into high gear for tomorrow’s leave-taking.

Mood: so-so
Drinking: coffee
Listening To: Midnight Show, The Killers
Hair: every which way

Sleep Deprived

Well no, I’m not really deprived. I mean I’m in bed for the requisite hours. It’s just the dreams man! The fucking dreams are driving me crazy! It’s so hard to get up and get going when you feel like you’ve been run over by a steam roller. Does the world still have steam rollers? Ashton Kutcher made a celebrity guest appearance in one last night. And I went to introduce him to someone, (an old boyfriend who had shown up and surprised me, thrown me off guard), and I was so kerfluffled I couldn’t remember his name. I was like, “I’m so sorry, I can’t remember your name. Who are you again?” Ashton Kutcher! And we were like friends! And I forgot who he was. Crazy!

Mood: so very very tired
Drinking: coffee, lots of cream
Listening To: Crave Me, Rise Electric (that’s one of Lukas Rossi’s former bands, case you didn’t know)
Hair: you know i think my hair is living in limbo

Jenny Was A Friend of Mine

The daily challenge of trying to control my life continues. When my computer died I lost my On the Ball software, so now I’m trying something else. If you recall, I really liked On the Ball, but since I’m using Outlook now and I don’t want to buy the ball again, this TimeTo program seems to make more sense because it works with Outlook and it’s free. It’s also pretty complicated time management stuff, which may in fact be a good thing. Of course anything works for one day. The trick for me is to be consistent. I’m working on it. My screensaver says “Do it now!” I travel around all day muttering “Forward motion” to myself. Maybe it’s helping. I just can’t bear the idea of leaving here on Friday knowing I’m not where I’m supposed to be at with work, that I’ll return to a sty of a house. There’s lots of time to get things done. I’m tired of feeling bad about myself, stressed about life in general. I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and stop giving up, procrastinating, investing way too much time in worrying about what’s to be done, when if I just did it, it would be done already. Like my inbox. I’ve been keeping my inbox cleaned up consistently since I started again. No lingerings. Everything dealt with or filed to be dealt with as it arrives. A small lifestyle change, perhaps, but it makes a difference. Every little step counts.

Mood: tiring, slowing down
Drinking: nothing, diet pepsi earlier
Listening To: PANDORA!! The Killers Radio, God and Mars, Days Away
Hair: out of my eyes for the most part

Thought for the Day

“Do not ask God to guide your footsteps if you are not willing to move your feet.” — Unknown

That’s a good one. Forward motion, folks. Forward motion.

Catch My Disease

Last night during a particularly potent bout of SNA, when all the channels had gone into infomercials and I was dangerously close to ordering some sort of groovy deep dish grill thingy (only 2 payments of $24.95), I tuned into my local cable channel 10 instead and for the first time ever I watched a town council meeting. And thank god! I truly live in a bubble. Somehow I’ve totally missed the fact that come October 1 my community is going Wet/Dry recycling. Holy crap! I need new bags! And a new system. I totally would never have known about this, if I hadn’t watched the Council meeting. They said the Westmorland people went door to door with info kits, but it must’ve been when I was out of town. And I never read the local paper. So I’ve been in the dark.

Today I purchased a new coffee maker. I couldn’t live another day without one. Honestly. Instant was not cutting it. Anyway, got a 10 cupper at Jean Coutu for only $14.95. Pretty good. Then I went to Save-Easy and bought pizza and ice cream and pie and cake. Yep, I’m talking major junk cravings being satisfied here. Oh well. Tomorrow is another day.

Mood: buoyant
Drinking: COFFEE, brewed!
Listening To: In View, The Tragically Hip
Hair: clean

Move Along

Dreams are off the hook! Last night I was on trial. It was a bogus charge. I hadn’t actually done anything. My mother ignored a policy at her work, causing a co-worker (an old battleaxe-like type who should’ve been long retired, a fictional character by the way, my mother works with no such person) to screw up. Nobody died. Nobody was even hurt. It was something super simple like dishes being stacked in a different place, causing the old battleaxe to turn customers away because she thought they were out of plates and could no longer serve. My mother works in a cafeteria, in case I didn’t mention that. My mother actually works in a high school, but this was a public cafeteria, in a high-rise.

Anyway, rather than being perceived as making a mistake, the old battleaxe wanted blood, heads to roll. And since everyone always loves my mother and wouldn’t do anything like that to her, I ended up in a courtroom on trial. It’s all very bizarre, I know. Mom figured the judge would just throw it out and didn’t even come to the courtroom with me. Dad was there, but only because he had a dentist appointment in the same building later in the afternoon. The judge turned out to be that crazy little man judge from Boston Legal though and wasn’t about to throw out the bogus charges without hearing evidence.

So there was testimony and cross-examination and expert witnesses and I just couldn’t believe it! That they were going to such lengths over something so simple that I hadn’t even been involved with. It stretched on forever. My father had to cancel his dentist appointment. And then finally it ended and it was time for the judge’s verdict. GUILTY! I couldn’t believe it! The whole thing was crazy, and it got even crazier when he sentenced me to 3-5 in prison. I woke up feeling like a truck had run over me in the night, achy, fuzzy headed, and just flabbergasted. I hate waking up more exhausted than when I went to sleep.

Listening to itunes earlier while reading blogs. I don’t have much music yet, but I’ve got a truckload of personal development cds that my boss copied onto my computer when he gave it to me. The PD tracks are generally no longer than a song, so I put it on random and end up getting a mix of music and lessons. And this is good. I don’t have the patience to listen to a whole cd of a seminar in one sitting, so this way I get to dip in and dip out.

Anyway, that’s what I was doing earlier and in the way that the universe steps in, fiddles with the energy and shows us the way, while I was reading today’s post on Christina’s blog called “get yourself out there” Brian Tracy comes on the speakers with the seventh key to success, Positive Action. “That means get going. Get busy. Move fast. Positive action gives you energy.” Yes, I know this already. I’ve witnessed it in my own life. I know for sure that it works. But today I really needed to hear this again. Funny how that happens đŸ™‚

Mood: not bad, considering
Drinking: coffee (instant again, i so NEED a new machine)
Listening To: Tell Me Baby, Red Hot Chilli Peppers and the rumble of the soapbox derby happening on the hill just in front of my house
Hair: the greasiest, stringiest, trailer park trashiest that it’s been in awhile

Doesn’t Look A Bit Like Jesus

Did I mention it’s Fall Fair weekend here?

Saturday, September 23

Hinchey’s Giant Midway
As part of the Sackville Fall Fair, Hinchey’s Giant Midway will be operating from September 20th to the 24th. Located at the corner of King Street and Main Street. Come and enjoy!

7:30 AM 11:00 AM Fall Fair Breakfast
Fall Fair Breakfast, Sackville Lions Club, 10 Dufferin Street. Menu: eggs, bacon, sausage, homemade beans, toast, juice, tea, coffee. Price: adults $6.00, children 6 years and under FREE. Proceeds go to Lions Community Projects. Everyone welcome!

8:00 AM 12:00 PM Yard Sale at United Church
Yard Sale at the Sackville United Church, Saturday, September 23rd from 8:00 am until noon. Everyone welcome!

8:00 AM 11:00 AM Yard Sale at sgci
Yard Sale at sgci Communications, 131 Main Street, Saturday, September 23rd from 8:00 am – 11:00am. Rain or shine. Proceeds going to Relay for Life. Everyone welcome!

9:00 AM 12:00 PM Farmer’s Market
Farmer’s Market every Saturday morning at the Bridge Street Cafe, 8 Bridge Street, Sackville. For additional information call Cathy at 536-4428

9:00 AM 4:00 PM Yard Sale at Sackville Legion
Yard Sale at the Sackville Legion, 15 Lorne Street, Saturday, September 23rd and Sunday, September 24th from 9:00 am until 4:00 pm. Rain or shine. Everyone welcome!

1:00 PM Sackville Fall Fair Parade
Sackville Fall Fair Parade, Saturday, September 23, beginning at the Drew Nursing Home, 165 Main Street, ending at the Salem Elementary School, 70 Queens Road, where awards will be presented.

3:00 PM Fall Philosophy & Film Series
The Fall Philosophy & Film Series: A philosophically interesting film will be playing every Saturday at 3:00 pm in the Wu Centre, Sir James Dunn Bldg, 67 York Street. The film playing This week is “Matter of Heart”. Everyone welcome!

4:00 PM 6:00 PM Hip of Beef Supper
The Westmorland Historical Society is holding a Hip of Beef Supper on Saturday, September 23 between 4:00pm and 6:00pm at the Keillor House Museum in Dorchester. Menu: tossed salad with house dressing, roast beef with harvest vegetables, choice of dessert, tea and coffee. Cost: $10.00 per person. For additional information call 379-6636.

7:00 PM St. Ann’s Talent Auction
St. Ann’s Annual Talent Auction starting at 7:00 pm at St. Ann’s Church Hall, British Settlement Road, British Settlement, Saturday, September 23rd. Everyone welcome!

7:30 PM Sackville Haunted Hike
Sackville Haunted Hike: An hour long walking tour of Sackville’s most haunted sites guided by Professor Ignatius Newcombe. Meet at the entrance to the Waterfowl Park next to St. Paul’s Anglican Church, 125 Main Street at 7:30 pm. Admission by donation. For additional information contact Paul Merrigan at 536-3866 or

8:00 PM Donnie & the Monarchs
Donnie & the Monarchs will be performing for the Fall Fair Dance presented by Cape Jourimain Nature Centre, Saturday, September 23rd at 8:00 pm at the Sackville Veterans Memorial Civic Centre, 182 Main Street. Tickets are $25 and available at the Civic Centre, Jean Coutu, Tidewater Books and Bridge Street Cafe. There will also be a Silent Auction. All proceeds to go to Cape Jourimain and the Civic Centre. Everyone welcome!

9:00 PM Harmony Trowbridge
Harmony Trowbridge: Toronto’s Vinyl-Cafe-approved songwriter “Harmony Trowbridge” will be performing at George’s Roadhouse, 67 Lorne Street, Saturday, September 23rd. Plus Sackville favourite David Myles and Mount Allison duo Pat LePoidevin and Corey Isenor. Admission $5.00 at the door. No person under 19 years of age. For additional information contact Tim Jones at 364-0864 or

9:00 PM 12:00 AM Dance at Mount Whatley Hall
Dance at Mount Whatley Hall, every second Saturday from 9:00pm – 12:00 midnight. Music by Del Wheaton & Co. Admission $5.00 per person.

Mood: awake since daybreak, what is up with that?
Drinking: coffee, instant, with cream . . . kinda blech! but the machine is on the fritz
Listening To: The Luckiest, Ben Folds
Hair: needs some work