To Meat or Not to Meat

plantbaseddietThe other day I had a sulky day of depression where I literally just stayed on the couch all day eating cupcakes, french fries, wieners, canned peas & carrots, and microwaved popcorn smothered in Ketchup flavoured seasoning; drinking a ton of coffee, a couple of glasses of wine and one cup of hot chocolate with an ounce of brandy added for zip; and watching documentaries on Netflix.

I had once again let my boyfriend’s flighty attitude toward life get under my skin. After this many years together you might think I would be acclimated to it by now, I would expect it and never be surprised by anything, but you would be wrong. My recovery might be quicker when I’m blindsided, but I still get blindsided.

Anyway, I don’t want to write about why I had taken to the couch for the day because the more important thing is that while I was sulking and stuffing my face with crap, I wasn’t watching mindless sitcoms or cartoons, I was watching documentary films about things that matter, things that get me thinking, things that give me insight and energy and ideas. I watched 10 Questions for the Dalai Lama, GMO OMG, Happy, and finally Forks Over Knives Presents: The Engine 2 Kitchen Rescue. Continue reading “To Meat or Not to Meat”

Walking Through Ashes in Eden

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Sackville Waterfowl Park circa 2014

I went to Sackville on Saturday to hear a talk given by a friend who attended a week long workshop in Colorado last year by the author of Women Who Run With the Wolves.

I have been out of the creative scene for years now, and honestly I wasn’t feeling any urge or pressure to reconnect with it. I went to this presentation because a) my friend invited me and I wanted to be there to support her and b) it was happening in Sackville, where I lived for two years, really miss and will seize any opportunity to visit.

As far as the talk itself, I didn’t really have any expectations. My friend and I had spoken at length last fall about her experience in Colorado, so I felt like I had a good understanding of it and I wouldn’t be likely to have any AHA moments. I wasn’t really thinking that I would be impacted in any way personally, other than it would be great to see old friends and hang out for a bit.  Continue reading “Walking Through Ashes in Eden”

#2: I Am Getting Wealthier Each Day

SparkPeople Food Tracker for Tuesday April 28, 2015. Still not eating enough, but getting better. Breakfast was the same as Monday.
SparkPeople Food Tracker for Tuesday April 28, 2015. Still not eating enough, but getting better. Breakfast was the same as Monday.

Yesterday was pretty awesome day because I got to go see the amazing Mo Kenney with Joel Plaskett and The Emergency in concert. And I got to take my niece to her first ever concert! It was an awesome-tastic experience! My boyfriend wasn’t too keen based on the tunes I had played for him but even though I had never seen these performers live before I knew they were going to be good and wow! They did not disappoint!

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#1: I Am Wealthy

Day 1 Monday April 27, 2015, SparkPeople food tracking. Eating not enough is just as unproductive as overeating. Today I will do better.
Day 1 Monday April 27, 2015, SparkPeople food tracking. Eating not enough is just as unproductive as overeating. Today I will do better.

So yesterday I restarted my SparkPeople journey and also took a few minutes to reset my vibration. I wrote 20 positive affirmations, enlarged them so they filled an entire page and then printed three copies.

The first copy I taped to the ceiling right above my bed so it’s the first thing I will see every morning. The second copy I taped to the shelf in my bathroom so it is the thing I see when I go to the toilet. And the third copy I taped to the wall right above my computer screen at my desk, so I see it all day while I am working. I have been constantly repeating the affirmations to myself and out loud.  Continue reading “#1: I Am Wealthy”

Go Big or Stay Home

Today I am grateful for the new to me washer and dryer I got on the weekend.
Today I am grateful for the new to me washer and dryer I got on the weekend.

I haven’t written in awhile. I hurt my arm in January. At first I thought it was just a sore muscle (I had used the Wii Fit and done some tricky yoga poses). But it has turned out to be something more serious. A frozen shoulder, apparently. I have had one appointment with an osteopath and I have another scheduled later this week. She helped immensely for a couple of days about a month ago. I am very much in need of a break from the pain, so even if I only get a few days respite again, it is well worth the expense.

I kind of feel like I’ve been losing my mind. Again. Still? I don’t know if it’s just the constant physical agony, the long depressing winter that doesn’t ever seem to end here, or what. But something has got to give. I can’t continue this way. I have been very depressed. I have gained 40 pounds since this time last year, 30 of those just since Christmas. I have been feeling very vulnerable and helpless. That’s never a good thing.

So today, even as I stand up to my knees in the rubble of this chaos, I am taking hold of the reins and pointing this horse and buggy on the path to abundance and gratitude. I logged into SparkPeople. I weighed myself. I put on my Spark activity tracker. I tracked my water and breakfast (even if it was only coffee). I set new weight loss goals. I am breathing deep and going to work.

Time Keeps on Slippin’, Slippin’ …

timemanagementYesterday was not a great day. I stayed in bed too late, just managed to eek out the bare minimum requirements for a work day and ended up carrying over a whole lot of tasks from yesterday to today.

Because I slept late yesterday, I really wasn’t tired last night so I stayed up super late watching shows on my computer. I knew if I went in the bedroom to my comfy bed and a room that stays pretty dark all day until the sun comes around the building to set in the evening, I would sleep late again this morning and begin a dangerous pattern. So instead I slept on the couch in the living room.

This doesn’t always work because the couch can be quite nice on snowy days, but most days it is impossible to stay there once the sun comes up. My window is huge and lets in all the sunlight. Continue reading “Time Keeps on Slippin’, Slippin’ …”

Time Management Tuesday

jimtimeI had a really good day yesterday. The new day planning software is a little buggy in that recurring tasks don’t leave the list when you’ve completed them and crossed them off, which is annoying. But other than that I kind of like the feel of the program and the way it’s laid out. I may just turn off the recurring thing and write a note to myself in the notes part to just change the date manually when the task is done for that day. Or next week I might try the other program I have and see if it’s better.

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