January 11, 2010 at 8:12 am (focus, goals, new year, personal development, state of mind)
It’s 2010. I still can’t get used to saying or writing that … 2010! Wow! I am getting older. For sure.
I’ve been terribly lax in my blogging. It’s not that I have nothing to say, well, actually maybe I haven’t had much to say. I’ve been going through a lot of personal changes in my life and I’ve been in a time crunch trying to keep on top of everything, keep all the balls in the air.
It’s the first new year in a very long time that has come and gone without me having the urge to analyze the previous year and set new goals. 2009 was a bit strange as years go for me. It began with all kinds of energy & focus toward work & creativity. But really didn’t take long to derail. It seemed like every day that went by I lost more focus and energy toward work & creativity, but quite surprisingly the love & romance side of my life took off, soaring to new heights. I ended the year engaged to be married to the one true love of my life. This was beyond unexpected. I still pinch myself in case it’s all been a long dream.
It just goes to show that regardless of your intentions, the universe has a plan.
So I’m starting this year feeling a little scattered. I’m happy. I’m very very happy, but I don’t seem to have any intention for 2010. I don’t seem to be looking too far into the future. I’m enjoying the now. This is new & different & I’m not at all sure it’s wrong. Maybe it’s just what I’ve needed all along. I seem to be more productive at work. My home life is the best it’s ever been. The muse is tugging at my soul, fanning my creativity, sparking new stories.
So maybe this year it’s time to just let it ride. Let the universe take me where it will. Just wake up everyday and do the best I can minute to minute without looking too far in the future.
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June 5, 2009 at 5:00 pm (101 things, adventures of a single girl, goals, good stuff, trips, vacation, world)
Tags: life list, success, travel
I have crossed something else off my life list! Earlier this week a bright shiny new Canadian passport with my name on it arrived by priority post! Yes! I am a woman who can now leave her home and native land to seek adventure elsewhere.
Where might I go?
What might I do?
And when will I leave?
Stay tuned …
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May 18, 2009 at 8:11 pm (apartment)
Tags: spring cleaning
On the weekend I saw something that inspired me to write. At the time I thought a blog post, but upon further reflection I think it’ll be my next Editor’s Note in Bread ‘n Molasses for July.
Today has been long and tiring. I’ve finally started my spring cleaning. Yes, I’ve only been thinking about it for about a month now, but today was the day. I have a detailed plan of action, room by room, step by step.The plan is to do just one room per day, which should make the whole thing more manageable and not feel too overwhelming.
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May 17, 2009 at 1:31 pm (dreams)
Tags: celebrity guest stars, ex boyfriends
In the dream, an ex of mine has explosives and he’s rigging something to blow. I’m trying to talk him out of it. It’s dangerous. He could blow himself up or hurt innocent people. I’m afraid of things like this. But his mind is set. Plus, it’s too late, he’s already begun setting it up. I follow him to the site. It’s a public park. This troubles me. “What about kids?” I scream at him, but he just gives me that crazy look and smiles. “It’ll be worth it, you’ll see.”
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May 15, 2009 at 10:26 am (anniversaries, rambling)
Not long now. In a little bit, I’ll be turning 40. Let the countdown begin! It’s a milestone for someone who never believed she’d live past the age of 33. It’s a little frightening to hit that number and realize with certainty that my life is already past or certainly approaching the halfway mark.
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May 14, 2009 at 1:32 pm (rambling, weather)
What is it with the wind? The howling around my windows grates on my last nerve. I keep looking out the window, watching the sky, the gulls fighting to stay in the air, the crashing waves on the ebbing tide, as if I expect something terrible to blow this way. But what? I couldn’t say.
It’s a warm day here, sunshine, a bit hazy, but I had to close the windows because the wind was driving me crazy. The flapping curtains threatened to snap right off the rod. Incessant wind chimes aren’t soothing. At times it felt like the whole picture window would be blown back into my apartment. So I shut the windows. But still there’s the wind. And I don’t like it.
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May 13, 2009 at 8:49 pm (adventures of a single girl, crazy people, memories)
At Service Canada even though there didn’t seem to be anyone ahead of me, I had to wait quite awhile. I sat alone in the waiting room scanning The Daily Gleaner, trotting my foot, weaving, wondering if I should buy ibuprofen on the way home to take care of stomach cramps that had stirred suddenly, reading posters about passports and old age pension and how I could get a grant for environmentally friendly home renovations.
I had been sitting there for about 10 minutes when a man joined me. He said hello and started talking about “up home” as if he knew me, but I didn’t immediately recognize him. And after he talked for a bit I realized he didn’t recognize me either, he thought I was a town girl, though I had already figured out who he was and where I remembered him from …
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May 12, 2009 at 7:39 pm (101 things, aha, focus, good stuff, state of mind, sunday night anxiety, trips, writing)
Since I first started blogging in February of 2004, over five years ago, I don’t think I’ve ever taken such a long hiatus. I can’t believe it’s been over two months since I published a post. Wow! Forgive me readers, for I have sinned.
I would like to explain my absence by saying that I have been consumed by other writing … but unfortunately that would be a lie. I’ve had a lot going on, but I haven’t been consumed with any other other writing.
While I think it started on a very subconscious level, this break has been more the result of me taking time to reassess what it is that I hope to accomplish here.
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March 6, 2009 at 8:28 am (family)
Another reminder this week of how fleeting life really is. My uncle passed away. He is only the second uncle I’ve had cross over. I seem to take these deaths particularly hard. Because saying good bye to family is hard, yes. But I guess the death of an uncle also reminds me too much of my own father’s mortality. I look at my cousins and I think some day that will be me and I wonder if I’ll have their strength and honour, and if I do where that will come from within me.
The message is clear once again. Life is too short and fleeting to not spend it doing the things that make you happy, being close to the people you love, laughing, loving, living. I can’t get any of the days I’ve spent being miserable back. It’s time to make a move.
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March 2, 2009 at 9:26 am (rambling)
Late yesterday afternoon I decided not to brave the cut-you-to-the-bone wind chill, narrow roads and non-existent sidewalks and opted instead to take a cab downtown in order to conduct banking and do a little shopping for some long overdue toiletries at the Jean Coutu.
At the bottom of the hill by City Square restaurant as we turned by the Royal Bank we met a transport truck who was apparently lost and did not see the Do Not Enter One Way signs. Can you say harrowing?! Luckily nobody crashed and the driver safely made it onto the hill and back onto the truck route. Whew! That was close!
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